yesthismaybesurprising,iwasonly13yearsoldthattime。but,dontknowhoworwhyithappenedtomesoearly。ifelldeeplyinlovewithaguy,whoiusedtothinkwasannoying2monthsago。 itwas1997,inchittagong,bangladesh,meandmyfamilyhavejustmovedtoanewapartmentinanewarea。so,afterfewweekshavepassed,istartedgoingbacktoschool,sinceitwasduringramadanwemoved。well,imadesomenewfriendsintheneighborhood。thisgirlwhowasalwayshangingoutwith,hernamewasivy。onedaywheniwasgoingtoschool,ibumpedintoivyonthewayoutofmybuilding,andshewasstandingnettothisguy,helivedinthebuildingrightbesidemine。hesaidhitome,andwejustaskedeachotherhowareyouandblahblah,thenihadtoleave。butinoticedthatguywaslookingatme。itwasadifferentkindoflook,lookwithloveinhiseyes。fewdayslater,inoticedwheneverigotoschoolandcomebackfromschool,heisstandinginhisbalcony,andsmilingatme。ifheisnotaround,andoneofhisfriendsseeme,theystarttoyellouthisname。ohyeah,bytheway,hisnamewasmamun。 so,iwasveryannoyedbythosethings。andieventoldivytotellmamuntostopthesefoolishness。aftermyeamswereover,ihadabreak。soiusedtogototheroofandreadbookstospendmytime。mamunusedtocometotheirroofalsoandbothroofswheresoclosetoeachotherthatyoucanjustjumpfromonetoanother。onceiwasreadingabook,andinoticedmamuncometotheirroofandhelookedatme,andsmiled。ohmygod!idontknowwhathappenedtome。thatsweetsmilejusttookmeaway。ismiledbackathim,forthefirsttime。icouldneverforgetthatmoment。weusedtosmileateachotherwheneverwesaweachother,butneverhadachat。iwassurethathelikedmealot,because,anytimehewouldseemeontherooffromhisbalcony,hecameuptotheroofrightaway。ifellinlovewithhimverydeeply。iwassurprisedthatidid。thefeelingsihadwassobeautifulandmademesohappy。mamundidcometomyroofonedaytotalktomebutiwantedhimtogoaway。ididntwantanyonetoseeustalking。asyouknow,inbangladeshrumorsgoaroundsofast。whenwetalked,isawdeeploveinhiseyes。ididnttalktohimmuch。still,lifewasgoingonsowonderfully。mamunnevertoldmehelovedme。ithoughtthatwasbecause,iwas56yearsyoungerthanhim。 verysoon,ifoundoutthatmeandmyfamilyareleavingbangladeshandcomingtocanada。iwasdevastated。icriedallnightbuttherewasnothingtodo。whenmamunfoundout,heaskedmeontheroof,ifitwastrue。whenisaidyes,heaskedhowlongwillibeincanada。theanswerwasmaybeforever,weweregoingtosettleincanada。helookeddepressed,allhesaidwasoh,thenitoldhimoutflightdate。thenetmonth,itwasramadanagain。mamuncametosaygoodbyetomeontheroof,hewasleavingtospendhiseidwithhisfamily。thatday,iwassosad,ifeltlikeilostsomethingveryimportantinmylife。wesaidgoodbyetoeachother,hesaidhethinksiamsuchasweetgirl,hehopesihaveagreatlifeincanada。ohmygod,icouldntholdmyself,ithinkmyeyesbecamewatery。ididntwanthimtoseethatiwascrying。isaidyoutooandtriedtosmileandlefttheroofrightaway。 thatwasthelastdayieversawmyfirstlove。now4yearslater,hereiamincanada。ihaveguyinmylifenow,whomiamdeeplylovewithaftermamun。ineverlosehim。 iam。。。overmamunnow。everytimeirememberthosedays,lookingateachotherontheroof,talking,ifeelreallydown。iwonderwhereheisnow,ifwewillevenmeetagain。。。icanneverforgetmyfirstlove。